jvesper

I miss my weekends! I have been working the "grave" shift for the past two weekends. I am happy that this weekend will be my last because I miss spending time with my wonderful husband. I have been making a lot of money lately which I am happy about.

Kody is the cutest dog I have ever met. Sometimes I just want to squeeze him as hard as I can! Aron and I bought him a toy today that looks like a dead weasel and he LOVED it! When he first saw it, his pupils became huge. After I gave it to him, he proceeded to sprint around the apartment tossing it into the air. He is adorable!

I miss water. I miss the rain and the sound of the ocean waves beating the harsh, black rocks of the Ketchikan beaches. I miss the wind too; I love the sound of it tearing through the trees and around the big beautiful home of my childhood. I love the fresh smell of the ocean and the way I feel when I am there -- like I belong. My heart will always belong to those dense woods, high mountains, and brooding clouds. I will not feel complete until I return.

Last weekend we bought Kody some much needed booties to wear outside in these negative temperatures. He wore them for the first time a couple days ago. Kody was so confused as Aron picked him up and I slid them onto his little paws. When Aron set him down, Kody tried to walk to the door. He kicked each leg up and out to the side like baby duck swim strokes, and we laughed our hearty belly laughs at the expense of our poor, confused pooch.

I am lying in bed watching my husband work on one of his many lab reports at the computer. This is one of those moments when I look at him and find him the most beautiful person in the world. I always find him handsome, but there are these moments when I not only see him physically, I see him in his entirety with all of his wonderful attributes, flaws and mysteries; and the sight of him makes my heart ache with love.

Well, I'm going to give this journal thing another go. It has been way too long since I have written. I am now finished with school and hired at Fairbanks Memorial Hospital as a real tech. I love my job so much! I am so glad that I got my degree. Aron has one more year of school and already has a job as an electrical engineer at GVEA! We are so blessed.

I love my job and I love the life Aron and I have built together here in Fairbanks; but I want more than anything to move back home to Ketchikan and be with my family. I am always hoping that this is God's plan for us.

We have a dog now! His name is Kody and he is a beagle. I love having his sniffy nose and wiggly tail around. He reminds me so much of my other sweet beagle girl. I have a feeling Kody will be the star attraction in many of my future entries.

Once again I am up for 24 hours. I have about fifteen minutes left on my shift which is good, but the idea of walking up the hill to my apartment sounds excruciating. Literally, 4 of those 24 hours I wasn't on the clock for something. Yup, between clinical, On-call for x-ray, and my DA job I have worked 20 hours today... WOW! I just watched "Roman Holiday" with Audrey Hepburn. I looooovvve that movie!!

*Sigh* My life has become a little crazy. I have a lot going on this semester. I now have two jobs, classes, clinical, choir and a trip coming up (which I am very much looking forward to). Trying to keep everything from conflicting is stressful. Now that my life is filled with all of these things they are all I can think about. I would rather keep my mind on less stressful topics... oh well. I asked for it. I did not get a weekend at all this week. In fact, I was up for 24 hours straight on Saturday with only an hour nap to keep me going. Today is Sunday and I am working a 10pm to 2am shift, meaning I will get 4 hours of sleep tonight and I will be at clinical all day tomorrow. *Sigh*

Tuesday evening I searched through the drawers hoping I would still find it somewhere in the apartment. When its corner caught my eye under a pile of books I snatched it and wiggled it out. It was my old choir folder. I blew off the dust and smiled at my maiden name engraved on the cover. Later that evening I attended Choir of the North with my old folder in hand. I had forgotten how much I love to sing.

Today is Monday the 17th of May. It is a beautiful, sunny day. I just got out of my morning class and I am sitting in my on-campus apartment watching out my window. Campus is normally bustling at this time of day; students hurrying to and from class. It isn't like that today. It is so quiet, I only see the occasional person walking by. It really feels like summer now. The campus has shut down and I am left behind. It is a strange feeling.

Yesterday was Aron's and my 1st anniversary. I can't believe it! A year ago we were on our honeymoon enjoying a beautiful day in Leavenworth. We were probably eating lunch at the Verona cafe at about this time. Such wonderful memories. Yesterday, while I was asleep, Aron went out and bought me white roses and wrote me a romantic note. We then went to Taco Azteca and ate lunch with Aron's mom and Liam. And for a romantic dinner, we went out to the Turtle Club and had delicious steaks. It was a great day. I love my husband sooooo much!

I am now two weeks through my Maymester class. It is going by fast! I have definitely enjoyed this break from clinical. After next week, I will be sooo busy. I am going to learn so much this summer! I am excited and also pretty nervous.